betrayal

betrayal is the only feeling i can describe.. finally knowing the meaning of betray. i cannot understand why in the world there is lying and betraying.!! why is it always friends that betrays me? why? is it i'm too believing in friends? or is it they find me too easy to lie to? i dunno what is wrong with them.. or i should blame myself for being too naive? why i always trust the wrong people? is it only family members are the ones that dun lie or betray? why do i always have this kind of betrayal issue? so now do i have to make friends with 1000 volts of lightning electricity to defend myself so that i dun get betrayed? and why do they wanna betray someone even if they call each other brothers? i really dun get it...so wat should i do? really have to be defensive? or i have to betray others? why cant everyone be believing and no holds barred?? confused...!!