I've got them cleared up, got to know exactly how you feel. Sorry about all that. I shouldn't be alive.

An accident just changed everything. Thanks.

Sitting on my sofa all the while, gotta do something. My hands gotta move.. So i've got my cushion as a drawing pad and draw all kinds of stuff.. hahaa.. My sofa is now my drawing pad.

Oh man, i'm feeling good! Not because i couldn't sleep at night, not because i'm still sitting in my wheels, but i'm feeling good because we chatted last night. Last night wasn't a long chat, but still it made my night.

Anyway, i've been rolling on my bed for 4 to 5 hours before i could go to sleep. Pretty hard and tiring to roll and roll, its even tougher than swimming...

All the best for me!

YAH YAH.. almost forgot, i've won TOTO on monday. hahahaa.. although its only 4+1 draw, but its still a win. Winning toto in my current state is really entertaining. hahaa.. Never was a habit to buy, really hit the jackpot this time! Gonna try my luck tmr! =))

I've got to bath! I've got to bath! I've got to bath!

Oh gosh! indescribable! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaa..i'm feeling clean and i smell nice! gosh, i'm so gonna jump to bed and roll my new skin on it...

God, but facts are still facts. i'm still seated intact on my chair and god knows when i'm walking again. Got to come soon i hope...

Shutting my eyes every night is something i dread for nowadays. I've always love lying down onto my bed and hugging my two bolster. But now, i'm really scared when i'm tired. I really dont wanna recap on the day of the accident.

Images just came whenever i close my eyes, exact mistake, exact damage, exact pain and torture. MAking me feel tired and guilty every night. How to stop it? Does the doctor's medicine help?

I need your help...

Getting myself soaked in the running water is really what i live for. For the second time i couldn't bath because i'm hurt. Damn!

Shit me, mistakes happened and i've got to pay for them. I'm really not knowing whats running in my mind. "Do you always need to get hurt before you get the picture?" my mum said these words to me.

Sitting in my wheels once again, i went into deep thoughts. Did i really need to hurt myself and get everyone around me to worry for me to learn?

I always thought i could do things when others could do. But despite all that, guilts is something not everyone wanna have. Cause its really terrible!!

Being guilty isn't fun, lying on the bed without those eyes shut isn't any fun shit. Jumping right up from dreams isn't cool. I've learnt my mistake, and i've got pretty much to pay for.

Will i ride again? Nope. But will i get on the road again? Yes, i will!

Please kill me instead of seeing you in pain.

Everything is taking its place. Job is really going well, just removed the box and the basket. And its going pretty smooth to me, although all my pillions are complaining about the comfort no more! hahaha!!

Improvement in my life too! getting somewhere and towards there. At least its heading somewhere that i'm looking forward to.

I've made a conclusion yesterday! Grooming oneself really helps! I have girls talking to me, finding topics to start with me. There was this girl in this shop that asked whether my ear hole hurts when i enlarged it, while i'm looking through the jeans. I thought sales personal should ask what am i looking for or what can they help me in size and design. It really made me concluded this theory.

My grandma went into the hospital because she's being breathless for awhile. So worried about her, but i'm sure to remember her coolness! haha..