shopping today at town...

woke up late in the day..then went to jurong point because my sister, auntie and mummy wanna join the membership for Amorie Fitness, and i actually fell asleep there..because guys are not allowed in...then bought a watch at the push cart..then went to Orchard, Zara at Wheelock, i found a really nice coat and a blazer at $239 and $299. very expensive, so din buy it. so we went to shaw place, saw a Levis jeans, going to buy it, but cannot decide on the colour and cutting, so i guess i'll go back and buy next time. so we went to the Nike shop and brought myself a Nike low-dunk, green, black and white. love it a lot..went Far east plaza and got myself a cap, cross necklace. then bought a wallet at Topman at Wistma Atrium, then went to the Nike Women shop, saw this cute girl in the first day work..and my sister and mummy getting a hard time on her i guess...haha..she is so cute, scared to make any mistake in talking, action, the shoes..her actions just made her adorable..! haha..so we left home in our dad's car. when we reached home, i decided to go to the count down at boonlay cc with my cousin and friend..saw fireworks and mediacorp stars performing on stage..hmmm..thats all for the day, very tired now..i'm going to drop my head on my pillow le..the girL is so cute..too bad i din get her name, because her tag was written TRAINEE.. haha =) goodnight and God bless...! happy new 2007...!

painting at my grandma's house...

hai...looking at the pathetic house of my grandparents..looking at how we did the painting last year and now we have to go back there to paint again..all the mess they created with the incense sticks..making the whole house from beautiful pink to yellowish brown. then now we are going to paint it blue..look at the how we paint ba...all the jokes we made..hee =)


then we went to eat and played mahjong in the night...

my feeling..!

i decided to pack my room after i return from cell-group..i keep the stuffs tat reminds me of her...tat she gave to me, i bought for her, used before, presents, pictures, etc..while i was packing, the feelings came right into my mind, which made me think why would all this happiness get ruin just like tat..why would a loving couple tat people see, broke up so suddenly, and the feelings just came back, and i started to cry. like my friend always says that my tears are the most valuable, because i seldom cry, can say never..! but because of her, i cried the most times until i lost count. i rmb the first time i cried in front of her was when i was eating this damm spicy ma la noodles that made my tears roll. and since then, only she can make me cry. and really when i cry, i really cry until my bloster and pillow is wet. so i did happen just now when i was packing. now all the stuff is in the cupboard, even the wallet i'm using. it was my valentine's gift. no choice, but it will remind me how we spend our valentine's day together. i'm really feel very unfair for myself when i gave all my love for her and she do this to me, so disheartening. really breaks my heart. but God says we have to forgive! i forgive le, but it still has a deep scar in my heart. making me pain whenever i think of how we were before. God says we should love everyone even ur enemies. can i trust mankind again?or is there only God that has neverchanging love for me? i know after i had this girl, i almost lost contacts with my good friends, because of her, like i said i gave her everything, includes my time. so now i want the friendship.i really wish tat u guys wun be unhappy with me if i din spend time with u all before. sincerely apologize! sorry! am feeling down now.
church tomorrow morning, dunno wat to do after tat, i guess fellowship ba, if the rest are free..hmmm..goodnight le..seeya! God bless!

events of the day...

was on the bus to Jurong East and look at the hair before we cut...


finally I'm gone to get my hair cut..so shiok..that my hair is so thick and long and untidy, finally my sis and i decides to go and cut it today. first we called my sister's friend, the hairstylist was on leave. then we decided to go to far east to cut our hair. then we decided to go Jurong East to cut our hair, but in the end we go Far East to cut our hair. we went to hair-plan to cut our hairs.. haha..so fun. and i din know the person that helped my sis wash hair was a gay until 'he' spoke to my sis...i was shocked. and i started to look at his feet and legs and the hands and the BOOBS...'he' has BOOBS...OMG, wo de tian ar, wo de tian ar. so disgusting la. I din like gay from the moment i know what a gay is..okay..so after tat..i got my hair done, my sis had hers done, we went to wheellock to borders. then we took bus home..and guess how many buses we took today? 198, 174, 105, 187. we went to jurong east from jurong point to eat, then went to orchard to cut hair, then went back to jurong east to take bus, then took bus to jurong point..we have like gone through one big round..haha..used so much money when i have no concession for my bus..hee..i like my hair now..my sis likes hers also...haha..good day..! sister is coming my cellgroup..yea..going to get another family member to slavation, left my parents le...! PRAISE THE LORD...! AMEN..!
wanna look at how my hair was and after, wanna look at my sis de? wanna look at the have boobs de 'him'? show u the pictures...!
that is the 'him' wo de tian ar, wo de tian ar!!


then when we were going home, we saw this structures of people opposite Far East, so we took pictures of it...they look so real, and the guy is wearing a suit.


okay...done..!the events of the day..goodnight lo...! God bless..!

hmmm...

lying on the bed with my laptop in front of me..so i decided to blog about my feelings..hmmm...is bored now..now that the break off have been past for 2week..i am still feeling a bit lost..like nothing to do..no friends..cuz i tot this relationship would last forever, but now it doesn't seem so. so i have been going to the gym and swimming and tanning to get back wat i use to have, looking at the pictures when i took last yr really can see the bones de..now lei, u can only see fats. that time i had almost got my two packs out lei..but because i tot this relationship would last, so i din cared much about my looks because i already got people want le ma. now have to bring back the look...working hard now. hope the next time u all see me will be a changed person. christmas is coming. do u all wanna come to my church to see show and play the carnival and get your salvation? i din get mine on christmas, but i had fun last yr, thinking about it makes me getting all pumped up for that day..haha..now i'm listening to I Don't wanna Know-Mario Winans feat P.Diddy, can i dun wanna know wat is my next step in life...cuz i'm lost. someone spend time with me can? hee =) alone and bored now...wanna look at how i look 1yr ago?
see, almost..hee..actually still quite long..hahaa
gotto sleep le..going gym and swimming and tanning tmr, then going to cut my hair with my sister tmR..many plans tmR...
haha..goodnight...seeya..God bless...!

finally we are done...!

first picture we took at macdonald's together at king albert park with my fugitsu laptop in front playing my favourite song...sweet picture right?it has all turn to ashes in my heart...only memories...

what a relieve, finally we have a closure of our relationship. i was lost for so long and finally i still dunno what is happening, i still cannot bring myself to accept it. we have broken up at 04/12/2006, 11:31:45pm. know what, the day when we both were together was 04/11/2005, 23:45pm, nice eh? finally...it has been a year plus one month of being together. I'm single. single! throughout the years attached, i've learnt so much from her, so so much, the way i talk, the way i walk, the way i move, like every single step i take has her part in it. but currently she is giving up the relationship just because she wants to enjoy her single life. i grant her wishes! as long as she is happy, i still love her of course, its hard to let go, u think its easy? i took so much courage to let her have her ways to her life. I'm totally devastated...
sorry was away from blogging halfway...
Just finished talking to my mum. like every other person will say, anything happens, your family members will always be there for you.
And i know God is too! but its just too bad i can't see him and tell him i wan to love! teach me how to love again! give me strength to overcome all burdens! i need your presence most at this brink of moment. sorry for all my sins lord...! i'll choose to forgive what i need to forgive, please grant me a great heart and great courage. I'm willing to step out of my comfort zone and do things to glorify your name. i've cleared my thoughts, its you i need forever. relationships can wait le! i've decided to walk in the path u give me! and i know u care for me! i love you Jesus!!! Amen!

nothing interesting to do today...attached again?

was mapling in the night until around 425am then my dad came into the room, followed by my mummy then they scold us for playing till so late, seng was still on his 2x experience time...haha...forced to sleep, woke up in the afternoon and dear wants us to meet her at WM 230, and we only have 1hour to wash up and go there...so rush...now came the nothing to do, was at WM walking around and around and went to seng's house, then came back WM then ate pasta mania and then went to arcade and then sat on the chair and chatted with seng until 11plus...hahaha...really nothing much today...

then guess what, Joann and i are back together already...haha..dunno why did she wanna go through hell in the relationship and wants a patch back, and she has yet to promise me that she will be fully committed to the relationship...she is mapling all the while loR..so irritating, maple really can spoil all connection with people in real world and bond people in maple world, so this few days i've been mapling to make her know my presence, okay la..can see she is making effort in the relationship, work hard loR, it takes two people to click, leave it to God ma...!

have yet to fulfill the pledge for building funds yet..not yet found a job, not yet this not yet that, like so many financial breakdown loR...someone help me sort things out...God, i need u...! =)